“It wasn’t supposed to be like this”
“It wasn’t supposed to be like this”
Heaving through breathy sobs
God above me, holding my shoulder
It was always supposed to be like this
This pain like vomit, an exorcism
I am nearly choking, then I am quiet
Like a child curled on the bathroom floor
I have no memory anymore, the tiles are cold
The years pass by me like train cars
So I pull my limbs closely onto the rug
As the radiator hums I breathe slowly
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